I am always reluctant to publish various aspects of the story of my life. What is called a "testimony" in the Christian world. Not because I haven't worked through it but because it entails some very difficult things. Things I don’t know that I want to burden others with.
I am all about happiness and wanting others to be happy. Posting this heavier material seemed in stark contrast to that!
For many years I wouldn't even acknowledge that my past had any relevance on my present at all. Abuse, neglect, abandonment, blah, blah, blah.
I didn't want anything to control me; especially those that had hurt me. So whatever broken behaviors that got their foothold in my broken past was all on me.
By taking that stance, however, I was refusing to give space to that child that endured so much pain. She couldn't be silenced or ignored...she was leaking out ALL over my life, whether I wanted her to or not.
So as hard as it was, I began to have some compassion for myself and for my story. That was a turning point for me on a path towards healing.
But why share? Why put a story of such pain and darkness out there?
I sought counsel of my closest relationships. They had been telling me for years I should write about the things I have gone through... I just hadn't listened until recently.
In the pages of My Journey blog I will share the brokenness that permeated my early life, but I will not leave it there. This is a testimony to the power of God to REDEEM - it all!
"And as for you, you meant evil against me, but GOD meant it for good in order to bring about this present result..." Gen 50:20
My hope is that as you read the post in this portion of my blog you will see how God can redeem a person to such a degree that they can then turn around and bring healing to others.