I've seen You move, come move the mountains
And I believe, I'll see You do it again
You made a way, where there was no way
And I believe, I'll see You do it again
“Do It Again” by Elevate Worship
The past three years of my walk with Christ, on paper, have looked like the toughest of my life - on the brink of divorce, incurable disease diagnosis, death of my mother, maltreatment by coworkers, and a financial crisis with a newly formed ministry. With many of these overlapping on my timeline.
It is crazy! When I look at that list (and I even left off a few things) I think, "How on earth did I make it through these past few years?"
When You don't move the mountains
I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers
As I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You
I will trust in You
“Trust In You” by Lauren Daigle
Trust.
Obedience.
That’s how I made it through. I trusted that God would get me through to the other side. Then I acted in obedience. Which was a lot harder than it sounds.
How did I trust God and walk in obedience? What did that even look like?
You pray the opposite of how you feel. You pray God’s will for your life.
It started with the first trial on the list - brink of divorce.
When we began our year of separation after ten years of marriage, I truly did not feel like I wanted to be married to my husband anymore. I had built a huge mountain of anger and hurt.
But, even though I didn’t feel like it, I prayed for God’s will to be done anyway. I prayed for reconciliation even though I didn’t feel like I wanted it. I prayed for reconciliation because I knew in my heart that’s what God wanted.
Have you ever prayed for the opposite of what you felt? I know I never had.
Through that obedience, God instilled a supernatural peace in me. The hurt and anger towards my husband didn’t go away, but it began to ebb.
God began to work not only in me but also in my husband. After a year-long separation, we surrendered to God’s will for our marriage by attending a four-day marriage intensive through Focus on the Family. Then God gloriously restored our marriage.
That trust in God and obedience to Him changed me forever. Now that I’ve seen Him move mountains, I trust He will do it again.
And again.
And again.
And again.
So the other trials on the list? Believe me, when I say, they weren’t any easier! I have learned, that regardless of my feelings, I can trust God and be obedient.
~ Jen
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